Saturday, September 26, 2015
a breathing space
There's this lovely corner in Abi's new home in New York. . . I can't wait to go back, to toss my knitting in the basket, to settle in the little chair, just my size- and to breathe.
I've been reading some stuff. . . reminders to make a space to breathe. I understand the mechanics, really I do- but usually it's not the space that's noisy; the problem is my own noisy, distracted self.
Honestly, I struggle to have restful time alone with God especially when I travel; I grow a bit frantic inside.
Ahh, we were created to long for Him, to yearn for the Good Shepherd to lead us beside still waters! Sometimes the still waters elude me and discouraged, I conclude that a monastic life must be the answer. (Imagine that!)
So, I'm home in Texas, back in my routines and in my familiar breathing space. I'm anticipating travel again next month- and I wonder, Will I find that space to breathe with God inside my own heart?
Last month I spent a season of days in Psalm 119. . . I find myself resting there about every 6 months, drinking in the Psalmist's heart:
God be gracious to me according to your promise. . .when I think on your ways, I turn my feet to your testimonies, I hasten and do not delay to keep your commandments. (vs 59)
I'm not looking for a formula, a literal space, a particular routine. Today I breathe in God and desire a yearning heart . And I'm thinking on his ways, one thought at a time, again and again, thoughts that will change the direction of my heart no matter where I carry my backpack, no matter where I lay my my head.